mental link;

[cognitived]

PRACTICAL if we're gonna win this one, some of us might have to lose it.	RESILIENT do you know what it's like to be unmade?
SKILLED if i miss, it means im just another dude with a bow.	DETERMINED this is monsters and magic and nothing we were ever trained for.

( CODE BY WHAMBAM )

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day 25; this got so long I'm sorry

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[ Since they first arrived on this planet, things have been unsettling. Between Steve not knowing him and Barnes's everything, the whole Hive thing and having to navigate around the prescence of others in his head - well, Sam's pretty damn grateful for Clint's company. It helps, having someone that he already trusted, that he knows didn't come entirely from the symbiote.

It's not like Sam regrets taking the deal, not really - he's taken worse, for the team, for the safety of the world. Both he and Clint have. And he does believe that the team was saved - after all, he and Clint and Barnes were - he's just not sure about the rest of it. This mission is hard to read, and it doesn't much feel like interferring with the two different factions is doing a lot to help save the rest of the universe. And while it ain't like it's the first time that Sam's followed orders he didn't necessarily have the full picture behind, that was the kind of thing he stopped doing after he got out of the military.

So far he just hasn't been involving himself as much as he could, sticking to where he's needed and to the other Hosts. And to catching Clint when he jumps off of rooftops when their mission goes sideways, apparently. He hadn't been able to stop from overextending himself trying to help the victims of the explosion, either, and he's quietly grateful that Clint had been there to half-drag his ass back.

Another thing he's carefully not dealing with right now, the fact that his symbiote ability means he can't use the skills he learned as a pararescueman. Just gives him more reason to try to gain control over them, he guesses.

At least he's not sleep deprived on top of everything else, with he and Clint bunking together and trading shifts. And it means they're there when nightmares happen, their own or from something bleeding through the mental link.

Like now. Or, well, not technically a nightmare, but definitely something that snaps Sam into confused wakefulness, agitated and unsettled. Something feels... right, it feels like he was damn near made whole again, and that registers as something very, very wrong. It takes no time at all for him to brush against Clint's mind, not when he can already feel Clint seeking him out. ]

( What the hell? )